Grudges

My post Kind of Sweet had one lesson from my mom, the one about going out and having fun no matter what. This one is about grudges.

Some people have grudges against others for reasons they probably don’t care to explain, or reasons they are just telling everyone about all of the time. I know people who are always talking about their grudges, but one thing I learned from my mom is that holding the grudge doesn’t hurt the person you’re mad at. Telling everyone who will listen probably doesn’t do much, either, really.

They’re going on about their lives completely indifferent about the fact that you’re mad at them – unless they thrive off of that kind of attention, and most of them don’t. They either don’t know, or genuinely don’t care that you’re mad at them. Which brings me to something a bit more disturbing, but I used to hear it a lot in church – I don’t know why. Pastors seem to be obsessed with telling people to let others know what they’re mad at someone for before they die, so they don’t die not knowing why you’re mad.

It makes sense, but that was … probably a bit awkward to read. I apologize, I’m not usually that morbid, I think…

Well, anyway. I don’t know what people do to get over their grudges, but I guess just think of it as a life lesson. People will do things – often unintentionally- that piss you off. Just go about your day – hard as it may be, and live your life to the best of your ability – and have fun with it, too. Don’t let them keep you down. (If they do care that you’re mad at them, and they want you to stay mad, the best way to get back at them without really getting back at them at all, is to have the most fun of your life, because then they’ll see that you aren’t affected by them, and they’ll likely stop – or at the very least find a new target. Unfortunate, but true.) 

Noses, Noses, everywhere

One of the first episodes I remember, and enjoyed, is the one this quote came from. In this scene – if you’re not familiar with this popular ‘90’s show – Will Smith is telling his younger cousin Ashley how to get people to leave her alone. I can’t tell you how to make people leave you alone, but I can offer a story and maybe some advice on how to handle people always being in your business – aside from the stuff you put on the internet. That’s just out there and there’s really no taking it back, but things you say in conversation to others, or just happen to mumble to yourself when you think you’re alone, this might help with those things.

I recently had an event where someone jumped into my business and essentially accused me of having poor moral character. All of this without knowing the first thing about what was actually going on. They kept after me, too, trying to make me feel bad, and then offering to help seconds later.

I don’t take kindly to being accused of anything that I know isn’t true about myself. However, I did my best to ignore it (as I was at work), but something about this event festered in me the longer I tried to not think about it. I asked a couple people in private for their input just for clarification, but to no real resolve. The general consensus, however was – and I’m still completely positive  - that I wasn’t being a bad person, I was just going about my business the best way that I knew how. I just don’t know how to take being accused of being a bad person, since it was one of the only times in my entire life where such a thing happened.

What made this person jump into my business in the first place? I really don’t know, and I don’t know what makes anyone jump into what are commonly called “A-B” conversations. Perhaps it’s attention seeking, and maybe these people who accuse others of poor moral integrity need some redeeming, themselves. I don’t exist in their brains, and from the looks of it, I really don’t want to, anyway.

These people are often negative, and that is contrary to one of my new year’s resolutions to be positive (once again, as I used to be back in high school, and pretty much my entire life before I moved into the dorms. I don’t know what happened there, or perhaps I do and just don’t feel like delving back into that part of my life.).

hate to be emo, but that's what it feels like to go back "there"...

I think what I’m trying to get at today is that people will stick their noses where they don’t belong, and some of those people will do their best to make you feel like less than you are. Just know that you aren’t what they want you to be, and go about your day. When you see that they want to kick you down – perhaps because they perceive you to be higher up than they see themselves -, just get back up and show them how tough you are.

“Can’t nobody hold us down, nothing’s gonna take us down, you may think you can stop it, but we just ain’t stopping tonight, can’t nobody hold us down” – 2ne1.  

Stay strong like 2ne1.

I'm getting my first pair of lenses!

I'm so excited. I know my parents won't understand why someone with perfect vision would be excited about getting contact lenses, but I am.

Because they're not just any lenses. They're Circle Lenses. And they're cute! Well,  I think they are. They looked cute on the site.


See, they have swirlies! I like swirls, so I got this kind. Well, I can't wait to see how they look when I get them.

In the meantime, I'm waiting until it's about time to head out for my shopping trip. I hope to have some good finds that I'll likely share with you by the weekend.

Also, on Monday, no matter what, I'm going to the state fair! It'll be the last day, and I haven't missed one fair since my parents left town. (They left over four years ago!) The year they left, I went with them, but we didn't have a lot of time.

So this year, when I go, I want to try a lot of fun, cool things. Even some weird ones, like the bacon ice cream! What about cheeseburger sticks? (It sounds like I'm out to make myself sick! I promise I'm not!)

But my main goal of all time at the fair is this!

Serving: buffalo wings (Ghost wings, buffalo, Caribbean, barbecue), steak fries, brewed malt beverage Coca-Cola, Diet Coke, Sprite, Barqs root beer,    

I remember finding them last year inside the Coliseum, and promising to return next year and buy the sauce for these ghost wings. (They're made with ghost chilli pepper sauce!) I drank some of it last year. And then proceeded to pour the sauce all over my corn dog because simply dipping it didn't satisfy my need for heat quite enough.    

 

That's all for now, folks. I have to head out. Pics of my haul soon. ^_^

 

School's Back in Session!!!

School is starting today for me and I really don’t know what to expect. I have one online class, and only one class that actually meets, but it only meets on Tuesdays. I also work on Tuesday evenings, which isn’t bad, but I’m hoping for more hours than just Tuesdays and weekends. I really like my job. (I get to fiddle with fun hot things!) I’m not a pyro…I think. Lol.

Anyway, I’ve setup some goals for myself that I hope to achieve during the semester, and I guess I’ll share some of them. They really aren’t all that, but everyone’s got something, right?

My first goal is to socialize more. I used to never really do that, and I got realy comfortable with a small group of people who, if I didn’t socialize with them, I didn’t really miss it, and I’d just spend the rest of the time by myself. Don’t ask why, because I’m not really sure. But I want to surround myself with positive people, because that group was actually a bit draining. They always had something to complain about, and, while everyone does, that’s just it. Everyone does, and surrounding yourself with that is really taxing, I think.

So I need more positive people. I also promised myself to be more active. There’s a capoeira gym around the school somewhere, and I think I might take classes there until I can find an mma gym nearby. Just in the meantime, since the good gym classes seem to be full.

If I think of anything else, I’ll add it to my list later. 

Sorry for the lack of pics in this post. More next time, promise. 

Dancing Through Life

Sorry, no, it’s not a Wicked post – although the musical was fun, as was the book. I still have to read Son of a Witch, but that’s not what the post is about, lol.

This is about me dancing to my favorite songs to lose my last 20 lbs. If you’ve seen my previous post with the pictures of myself, hat was me about five pounds ago, and I know someone is going to say “Grrrl, you skinny ‘nuff, stop wit’ all dat madness”...Probably not like that, but you get my drift. I’ve gotten it a lot, from doctors, friends, family, my bf – No, I don’t have an ED, or disordered eating, and this is definitely not to bash anyone who does.

I just truly believe that if someone isn’t completely comfortable with something about themselves, they should be able to change it without any form of backlash, or whatever. Also, I could go into backstory, which I might if there are questions about what that might be, but to be blunt, I used to weigh less and I was more comfortable at that lower weight, so I’m adjusting my lifestyle to get back there. I’m doing this for no one other than myself.

Now, back to dancing. I may or may not have mentioned that I’m a fan of the k-pop (among other forms), and I especially love that k-pop has nicely choreographed dances (and even dance versions of their videos). I have picked some that I like – and even a couple that I’m none-too familiar with and I’m dancing to those. I was doing that before I got distracted with blogging and laundry. I’ll go back to it after this. Promise, I still haven’t danced to Breathe, Oh My God, and Twinkle Twinkle, yet.

I had Doctor Feel Good memorized at one point, but I have to watch it more and do it again. My favorite method of getting a really good work out is once I learn dances well enough in bare feet, flat shoes, or my tennies, doing them in heels, and increasing the height whenever I’m no longer getting the same result. I know I can only get heels so high right now. My highest seem to be 5.5 inches, maybe six, I’m not entirely sure, as my ruler has disappeared. 

 (I have this heel for dancing, but in black), it's currently my highest, and I'm guessing maybe 5.5.)

Anyhousenwhosen, I was working up quite a sweat just doing the few dances I did before this. It was Gee, 2hot, and goodbye baby. I love working up a sweat, but it always feels dirty…and I don’t like dirty…I guess I’ve got a love/hate relationship with the stuff.

(you can probably guess, this is Miss A's Breathe...well, a pic of it, lol.)

About the lifestyle change, though. It’s been interesting since I left the dorm with no kitchen – the place that shall not be named… Anywho, I’m attempting paleo, and easing my way into it. I really like it so far – lots of meat, fruits and veggies – all of which I happen to like. Little to no bread, which I really only like in two cases a) it’s pumpernickel (or rye, as it’s frequently called, but pumpernickel is so much more fun to say.) or b) my stomach needs settling and that’s all that’s on hand. I don’t like many bread products because after eating it, I feel bloated and gross. Meat, fruit, and veggies don’t do that to me.

But paleo also means cutting out sweets. I’m simply cutting down. Until I can confidently eliminate them. As with bread, sometimes pop settles my tummy (I work outside on the weekends and we only carry pop, so there’s no carbonated water without all the junk in it.)

Also, I’ve always been a walker, but living in the apartment has required that I walk even more, and more is always better – at least, when walking is involved. We also happen to live in a hilly area, so I get to go up and down inclines a lot. But I guess that kind of concludes the lifestyle change. My bf makes sure I’m always hydrated, we drink water together, he brings me water when he’s drinking other things (mostly because I ask not to have the other things), but sometimes treating oneself is fine. Just don’t go overboard. And be honest when you do.

I went an extra mile and also re-danced too hot. I got it better this time.

Just some more tiddlybits. Until next post. ^_^

Kind of Sweet

On Thursdays, I usually go to the bar and check out the live music. This week, I completely forgot I was going to do that anyway – the week’s been a big old blur, despite wanting it to go by slowly (school starts next week, lol.) – and when I went to the coffee shop, I picked up a flyer advertising what I usually go to see anyway. One of the bandmates started talking to me about it, so of course, I said I’d go, fully intent – and I did. They started playing later than scheduled, but the band ahead of them played some great stuff including my all-time favorite “St. Thomas”, which I used to see live a lot as a kid.

(This is where I'd go see live music with my mom sometimes when I was little). 

But that’s a later post. This one is about Thursdays and something a little less severe than “revenge”.

When I was younger, I would frequently over-book myself, as would my friends. When they did that, I felt left out. Whenever that would happen, my mom always told me that the best thing to do was to just go out and have fun anyway – even if it was all by myself. The point being that a) if my friends intended to leave me out and saw me having fun, their plans were ruined. And b) I could, in fact, have fun by myself. (Up until I was 11, I was an only child anyway.)

Why am I telling you this? Back to Thursdays. I used to hang out with one of my gal-pals until …geez, how old am I using “gal-pals”? I’ll fix that later. Anyway, until we had a falling-out. It just so happens that the Thursday we were supposed to hang out, I ended up at this bar, instead, and of course, had the time of my life with free live music, and one of my favorite appetizers. My boyfriend works downtown, so he would always join me until the bus came, then we’d head home.

Do I intend to have revenge on a friend who thinks I’m stuck at home with no bus fare? Not in the least. If she does think that – too bad for her, because I’m not. But I’m not terribly concerned either way. Some people aren’t supposed to be lifelong friends, anyway, and maybe it was just time for me to find something else. I’m getting my social life back after too many years in a very restrictive dorm, at least. That’s all I care about. The weekends are a different story. I plan to be hitting the clubs up again. Soon.

That’s all for now, I’m sure I’ll be back soon with more for ya. 

Just some pics of me

I'm wearing the same shorts in the bottom pic as I was in the top. The boots are far too big (so it's not that I have grotesquely large feet) because I borrowed my boyfriend's boots and jacket.

No, I am not remotely "gangster". I found that shirt and thought the rainbow on it was cute, and also that as previously stated, "I'm not remotely gangster, this'll be fun to wear".

I'll probably upload more pics later, I think my first post mentions my lack of an sd card connection, and my webcam is kind of jank, so...It'll be a bit before I get anything good (again.)


I guess, if you really want, I have more pics on my facebook: http://www.facebook.com/Olive8013, or my tumblr: www.olive80.tumblr.com (If your browser says it's got Adult Content, your browser is lying to you.) I also have a twitter, but I don't use it much.

Tiddly Bits

Hi, all. I'm new to blogger...well, kind of. I used to have a blogger, but I didn't use it for anything because I was too busy with other stuff...like school...and moving around.

Anysnooch (you'll see that word around here a lot. I used to watch too much Will and Grace.), Just a few tiddly bits about me.

I'm a girl, and I'm not very old at all. I like a lot of stuff, like fashion, makeup, technology, Fringe, and Doctor Who, but not in that order of course. It'd be more like Fringetor Who, technology, makeup, and fashion, I guess.

I have a job that I really like, and I don't live near my family, which sometimes makes me sad.

As you've guessed, I love cherries - if it even crossed your mind...?

I hope I'm not boring you.

As for the fashion things I like - I'm really into Gyaru and Ulzzang...though, Ulzzang isn't really a style, I am in love with the doll look and circle lenses. I'm going to purchase my first pair tomorrow. Not that I really need a pair, my eyes look pretty dang big as they are, but a little bigger can be fun.  I'll be posting pictures soon. I just need to remember the cord for my camera (as my laptop is old and does not have an sd card...)

I haven't done any gal coords because I don't know which style suits me best. I'd like to try b-gal first, I think. I just like whatever looks cute.

I think that's enough boring you for now. Until Later.