ermahgerrrdddddzzzzz and junksss.

honestly, I still don't know where "ermagerd" came from, but that's irrelevant...I think...

Anyshooch, these workout classes and work ahve been killing my free time, well, obviously, but it's not like I've minded too much. I just wish I could have been blogging to you all more frequently. Also, it's hard to vlog when I dont' feel like I have anything to talk about. Nothing happens at work, really, school is ...school, except for that run, we all got lost and ended up having a longer run than we were supposed to . we guestimated that it was like 3-4 miles when it should have been "a little more than 2.2", since that's how long our last run was. It didn't hurt that much, or anything, and I surprised myself by completing it so fastly, and catching up with the rest of my class, but it got done, and I'm proud.

well, anyway, I've also been in a not so great mood because I found out that another family member went and died. aparrently, I don't get sad anymore. I just get mad...

but also, I think people have been getting too sensitive.
like, there's this new girl at work (I wish they would stop hiring new people and just give regulars more hours, but whatever), she told me that she didn't know how to do this one thing that I'm good at, but the manager guy sent her to do it anyway, and I sorted clothes. later, he comes back, we are extremely backed up because a of all) she's incredibly slow at this thing I do really fast, and b of all) she has these ridiculous nails on, and she keeps complaining about them. I ask him if I can have her room so I can do this thing because she even told me that she didn't know how to do it, and we're backed up, and he's all "no, I'll just help her", after shushing me because what I said might have hurt her feelings. I told him that she's the one who told me, and everyone is being too sensitive around here. - Once I've been somewhere too long, I stop caring about what comes out of my mouth to a point, but people really do need to grow a pair around that place, and by "people" I mean him...

so, anyway, that was the same day I found out. My mom has a magical habit of telling me these things RIGHT THE FUCK BEFORE I HEAD IN TO WORK. THANKS, MOM.

...see. angry, not sad.


thatisall.

rollercoaster of a week

This week has been such a rollercoaster for me. I mean, at first, it started out alright, I guess. I just felt like normal.
Then my mom called me first thing in the morning to tell me that my gran wasn't doing so hot, lost her will to live, and that she doesn't like my soon to be living arrangements. How many blows do you think I can take in five minutes? Someone's mastered low blows, and I don't know what the usage of that is...
anyway, then I go to work, kind of indifferent about life, but trying to play as though I'm actually having a lot of fun.

Then I'm at work, and I learn some disturbing things. Mainly, though, that one of my co workers, if she'd have seen me on the street in her neighborhood, she'd probably kill me in cold blood because of some black dude who held her up at gunpoint when she was twelve (another one held her mom up at the same time, I guess), so she grew up scared of black people, and she has a permit for her gun. All I've ever done is be black and understand spanish - all of this took place in English, though, right after she said "oh, no offense (to me)", and carried on with the story.

Well, the next day another co worker, after hearing me vent about it (I didn't use names) to another coworker, apologized to me on her behalf, and just that night, I was texting with another coworker who helped me not think much about it anymore. But it was really weird that I saw the girl who said that yesterday limping at work, so I asked if she was okay, I mean, I'm not the racist here, so I figure I can still be a decent person and ask, but she gave me a snotty look, so Idk...

well, I found out that my gran died hours ago, so...I'm not the happiest of campers, but Aiden has been entertaning me right well today. ^_^ So glad to have a great BF like him. :D

Sooopur Bizzeeee

 Egadz, have I ever been busy, guys. Running around with friends, also at work (I refuse to stand still, so it’s a good thing there’s a “no standing still” rule at my job.). It’s so big, buys. I wasn’t able to get pictures, ‘cuz I didn’t have anyone to take pics of me (sadface), but soon, you’ll see some stuff. I really want to get one of our hi-low skirts, they’re so cute, but Idk what I’d match it with, but I’m smRt, so I’ll figure it out.

I swear, with all the running around I do there ( I work roughly 6 hrs on work days, sometimes more, other times less, but the shifts are typically 6 hours, I think.) Well, anyway, I should have burned like a bazillion calories, lol. I hope so, anyway. But, I have other good news! I’m normally in one of the front sections, so even though I’m running around trying to find where clothes go in other sections, I’ve never not noticed that we do still have a sporty section! I can still have cute workout clothes next semester, guys! Hahahhahahhah

Oh, we also got a new housemate, somewhat temporarily, I think. Anyway, It’s been loads of fun having him around, did I tell you guys that I like videogames and that he brought some over? I swear, for the last few days, we’ve been playing tekken and sonic for many hours. I forgot how fun it was to be some of my favorite characters.

And some of our snow melted, making it easier to walk around (the ice is gone, too. I hate ice, unless iti’s in my drinks, otherwise, it can die. I don’t like cold things.

I’ve also used the sauna a few times. I like to deep condition my hair in there. It’s great, ‘cuz the heat gets all over evenly, instead of having to aim it a certain sections of my hair for a little while, then moving it. I’ve also noticed that my ends ahven’t been getting crispy. Ihaven’t ben using as much heat. I’ve noticed that cutting down definitely helps. I don’t flat iron as much, any more. In fact, I didn’t flat iron a couple times, and noticed that my hair was still holding up pretty well, and looking straight enough, even though I only ever wear buns, now.

But my semester is finally over. I’m so happy! No more stress for a while! Stress sucks booty! Hopefully your semesers are also almost over, too.

Now, I’m going to work on improving my fridge. I’ve bought celery, another pomegranate (they’re seriously SO tasty!), cucumber, ham, tortillas (the mini kind, I’m trying to ease carbs out of my diet, so I figure getting these, I won’t be eating actual bread, then I can cut these out…eventually. I know not all carbs are bad, but I want to see how well I can do without them for a while.)  I really do like fruits and veggies. I also really like meat. Mmm, meat! Oh, and I apparently still have some salmon, so I’ve got to figure out what I’m going to do with it.

One of my friends gave me insanity, I haven’t checked to see if they work, but I’ll see soon. I’ve wanted to try insanity for a while, so now that I have it, I can’t wait!

I guess that’s all for now. I’ll be pretty busy this week, so I’ll proably have more next week. You’ll probably get mini updates from my phone if I can, though. 

Sooopur Bizzeeee

 Egadz, have I ever been busy, guys. Running around with friends, also at work (I refuse to stand still, so it’s a good thing there’s a “no standing still” rule at my job.). It’s so big, buys. I wasn’t able to get pictures, ‘cuz I didn’t have anyone to take pics of me (sadface), but soon, you’ll see some stuff. I really want to get one of our hi-low skirts, they’re so cute, but Idk what I’d match it with, but I’m smRt, so I’ll figure it out.

I swear, with all the running around I do there ( I work roughly 6 hrs on work days, sometimes more, other times less, but the shifts are typically 6 hours, I think.) Well, anyway, I should have burned like a bazillion calories, lol. I hope so, anyway. But, I have other good news! I’m normally in one of the front sections, so even though I’m running around trying to find where clothes go in other sections, I’ve never not noticed that we do still have a sporty section! I can still have cute workout clothes next semester, guys! Hahahhahahhah

Oh, we also got a new housemate, somewhat temporarily, I think. Anyway, It’s been loads of fun having him around, did I tell you guys that I like videogames and that he brought some over? I swear, for the last few days, we’ve been playing tekken and sonic for many hours. I forgot how fun it was to be some of my favorite characters.

And some of our snow melted, making it easier to walk around (the ice is gone, too. I hate ice, unless iti’s in my drinks, otherwise, it can die. I don’t like cold things.

I’ve also used the sauna a few times. I like to deep condition my hair in there. It’s great, ‘cuz the heat gets all over evenly, instead of having to aim it a certain sections of my hair for a little while, then moving it. I’ve also noticed that my ends ahven’t been getting crispy. Ihaven’t ben using as much heat. I’ve noticed that cutting down definitely helps. I don’t flat iron as much, any more. In fact, I didn’t flat iron a couple times, and noticed that my hair was still holding up pretty well, and looking straight enough, even though I only ever wear buns, now.

But my semester is finally over. I’m so happy! No more stress for a while! Stress sucks booty! Hopefully your semesers are also almost over, too.

Now, I’m going to work on improving my fridge. I’ve bought celery, another pomegranate (they’re seriously SO tasty!), cucumber, ham, tortillas (the mini kind, I’m trying to ease carbs out of my diet, so I figure getting these, I won’t be eating actual bread, then I can cut these out…eventually. I know not all carbs are bad, but I want to see how well I can do without them for a while.)  I really do like fruits and veggies. I also really like meat. Mmm, meat! Oh, and I apparently still have some salmon, so I’ve got to figure out what I’m going to do with it.

One of my friends gave me insanity, I haven’t checked to see if they work, but I’ll see soon. I’ve wanted to try insanity for a while, so now that I have it, I can’t wait!

I guess that’s all for now. I’ll be pretty busy this week, so I’ll proably have more next week. You’ll probably get mini updates from my phone if I can, though. 

work all day play all night

This has been how it feels for a while, but I don't mind, really. Its only been a little tiring, but I'm getting used to it. After a decent shift at work, now that we moved to a larger location, there's been a lot of cattiness, especially between newer and older employees. After dealing with that, Tekken 4 tournaments are right the hell up my alley. Im gonna try kingdom hearts next time though, cuz I've never tried it before.  I really like work otherwise though. well, short post today, as I'm on a phone, but maybe a decent sized one soon.  in the meantime, go check out my instagram. I'm olive8o until I can talk to the instateam about that n fix it...

50 Squats a day?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

I just found a post challenging me to do 50 squats a day until christmas...

Among the things I'm not sure I can do...I did 50 yesterday, and that literally hurt my soul. K, that's a lie, but it was torture, well, today it was. I'm super sore from it, more sore than I was form the legs challenge, but I noticed that it got easier as I kept doing it, so maybe 50 squats a day won't kill me? Idk.


I don't really have much today. Just working and school. I'll be thooper busy, lol. But that's ok, 'cuz I'm saving for a car. ^_^

thxgiving fitspo...late...

 It’s been a while, ‘eh? Well, Let’s start with thanksgiving, huh?

So messy, lol. 

I did not end up in Oklahoma – which I’m not even sure I mentioned to you guys, but we were invited to Oklahom, but my new work schedule conflicted with it, so we ended up staying home and having our own thanksgiving. It was nice, I slow cooked the chicken all night, and made four cheese oven mac. So delicious, I’ll maybe give you the recipe later, if you want it. I make that every thanksgiving, except last time because someone got to it before I did, wait, no, that was two thanksgivings ago. I was at a strange house, that’s why.

Well, anyway, being the non-traditionalists that we are, we also had pizza, and now I know why mom used to get mad at the grapes magically disappearing *coughi’maddictedcough * Sorry mummy. (It’s ok, I talked to her on the ohone about it. She just laughed. )

We wwatched movies, but then he got called in to work.

I have to work Black Friday – well, he does too, but no one will be at his building ‘cuz it’s not a store, lol. I don’t know what black Friday is like around 4 pm, when I start, but I hear that we’ll probably close late.

Anyway, what else has happened since I last blogged to you all? It doesn’t seem like much, except that I had a full shift of work last week, and it went nicely. I still don’t know if I prefer the floor or the register, but I think the floor because there is always something to do. Not that there isn’t on register, but…the floor interests me a bit more, I guess. I still haven’t worked fitting rooms, and from what I can tell, we all rotate areas whenever we work, which is great, because we didn’t at the deli, which resulted in much burnout.

***ramblytime***

I want more grapes. (I just finished a cup…ugh. Now we know why I don’t buy these, I will go through them so fast. Same with cherries, but they’re not in season, and I refuse to settle for cranberries – tart little devils they are. YUCK!)

Anyway, another reason I’m glad I have this job is that on deli pay, I wouldn’t make enough to go paleo. With this job, I have no doubt that within the next month or so I can start stocking up on all my paleo-ish favorites, (you can even eat bacon, so long as it’s virtually unprocessed, which means you’d best find a farm to buy it from, but look, farmer’s market open year round! Woot woot! I’m a happy camper!)

Scratch all that, I'm keeping deli on the weekends, since I close the other store on weekends, lol. Well, so far. I'll see if they'll just let me do that. 

Aiden and I have agreed that since He’s the Carb King and I’m Protein Queen, that I’d be the main one buying meats. Which is fine by me, because I’m also the main one eating them :P. As for fruits and veggies – I believe I’m also in charge of those because I like them so much, and you best believe that I’m including much kimchi. Since that shit never goes bad, I’m hitting up BOTH Asian markets and getting my Kimchi ON. Hardcore.

And veggies are usually cheap at that one market, so I can go there, and I want to try Hmongtown, because I know they have lots of veggies there. (Which would also give me an excuse to buy one or three of their egg rolls. They’re so different from the ones at Chinese restaurants, and really, the only kind I’ll eat, lol.)

Ooh, speaking of Paleo – look, sue me, alright, I’m eating pre-flavored intant oatmeal. (It was a buck, and I need something in the meantime ‘cuz those bananas are KILLING my stomach, not in the “Oh, that just means you’re getting your fiber on, guuuurrl”, NO. It’s killing me in the “I need to find a vomitory receptacle before I get to school” manner.) So, I’m trying to go easy on my stomach, but even these oeatmeals have flax seeds in them. I remember when mom started using those. Ooh, I had no idea what was going on, but I won’t continue down that path because, well, you know, I don’t want to gross you out.

Walter: Everybody Poops, dear

Me:…*thought * I don’t even care, gross, dude. Not blogging about it.

K, well, that was a Fringe reference, ‘cuz I’m such a nerd, lol. Ooh, I’m going through withdrawal, too. I don’t even know what I’m gonna do when that show is off air forever. I need my fix.

Anysnooch, what else is there, Oh, back to diet, lol.

I found this on Tumblr: If you do what you’re supposed to 80% of the time, the other 20% doesn’t matter: the 80/20 principle.

Speaking of which: I just went to look for it on my phone, found tumblr instead, and saw food pr0nz. …makin’ me want to buy all them veggies!!!!

So, I also found another one:

How to lose weight:

1)  eat right

2)  Workout

3)  Drink Water.

Pic of amazing abs right next to them.

Which brings me to my next point:

I also came across this afer a day of tumblring (exaggeration, but still)

But the pics like these where the women have color are largely ignored...I shall forever reblog HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Is fitspo just as damaging as thinspo:

Ifyou don’t know what I’m talking about,

Fitspo is fitness inspiration, pictures, quotes, etc. of healthy people, generally in extra-fit shape being all healthy-like, and encouraging the reader to do the same.

Thinspo is genrally attributed to people with eating disorders, with pictures of people ranging from skinny to emaciated where you can see all of their bones, and quotes about how to resist eating longer, and such.

Some thinspo, doesn't all look like this, but a lot of it can.

I can see where on a venn diagram some of these things might intersect, like the fitspo pictures tend to have skinny people as the subject, but these skinny people also have muscle tone/definition, and the quotes aren’t “that’s not hunger, that’s your stomach applauding”, but things like “if you give up now, what was the point of even trying”, or something like that.

So sure, someone could use fitspo as thinspo, but that’s not the message I even saw one pic yesterday (I know, one out of like, a million) where a rather large woman was in the olympics lifting a barbell that probably weighs more than my real dad (and hence, would also weigh more than my stepdad, just given proportions), so yes, she was fit, and healthy, and on that picture, it was cropped with another one on the bottom that said “I know that this – pic of large strong lady – is just as much a fitspiration as this – pic of skinny woman who has muscle tone just kind of sitting around smiling )

So then there’s the argument of banning fitspo. Here’s where I’m like : IZ U STOOPIT?

Do NOT ban my Fitness Inspirtation, key word being FITNESS. Dear Freaking G……and here’s where I need to say “woosah”….

I just think people need to learn the difference (like I did), and then choose the healthier route. 

WIT, picless :(

 I’m changing stuffs to weigh in Thursday…seems to be the day where I actually see a change. I forgot that last week and the week before, but I checked my stats (all of them that I measure), and I always see a difference on Thursday. So weird.

Anyway, there’s also that no cutting challenge I’m in. Pleased to say, scissors have not touched my hair since (not very hard for me, though. I only ever trim anyway when they do touch my hair…), however, my bangs are now always in my eyes (literally, I’ve got bang hair poking the shiz out of my eyes every day.) It’s ok, though ‘cuz I kind of want to grow them out until I get my hair to a certain length (idk which, yet), then I’ll go bangsies again. (I'm thinking, maybe full apl, or bsl? Idk)

Updates on any and everything:

I did a catering event on Saturday. It was fun, and I would definitely do it again. The best part was probably that I didn’t have to wear any special attire, so I could just wear jeans as usual and all was hunky-dory.

Also, Friday, I went to the mall to get apps ‘cuz I need another job. I plan on staying at the deli, I’ll find out what hours I officially work on Monday, but by the time you read this I’ll know for sure…ish, I think. I can’t wait. I’ll be working at Forever21. I’ve been wanting to work there for a while: firstly ‘cuz that place is awesome, and secondly because I want retail experience. (I’m tired of being a cashier in the food business, but probably won’t mind it much in the clothing world, mostly ‘cuz I won’t be tempted to eat food since it won’t be there to eat.) And I’m pretty good at not buying five million pairs of jeans I don’t need. However, I do need two to replace a couple no, three to replace three that I won’t be able to wear anymore because of unfortunate tears…some from wear, others from God knows what… egh. Digressing.

So, that’s about all that’s been up with me. I’m currently in the middle of a conditioning/oil treatment, so my hair regimen is also pretty in-tact. I’m finding though, that I only have to work with my hair once a week instead of twice like I posted before, Idk what was up with my hair then, but it’s back to normal.

Oh, but I lied, my next post today will have pics of the modeling thing I did for this class. I mean it's not like, photoshoot modeling, obvs, and you'll see how good these people were, at least, I think they were good. 

But work yesterday was fun. We did paperwork, watched a training video ( it was slightly cheesy, but that was still fine, I enjoyed it), had a tour around the store, learning about the different "girls" who represent our departments. And wouldn't you know the one right up my alley - they even had a Sporty girl, with yoga mats and fitness-y clothes, Oh, I can't wait! I didn't see any fitness shoes though, but that's cuz freakin' no one wants to work out when it's cold - at least, not in my state, but I'll get to that later. 

We had a li'l break and went to starbucks - luckily, right downstairs! hahaha! working at a mall may prove to be too convenient, lol!. 

I have a couple pic-treats for you lot during my next post, promise. There's one I think you'll love a lot, especially the ladies. ^_^ 

After our break, we trained in on registeres, and worked the rest of our shifts. 

I go back in today ata five and work 'til close. I work four to close on friday, then maybe I'll have my schedule for next week. They said I'l likely get more hours, too. SO HAPPYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!! I seriously need a job where I can get hella hours, lol. 

Kk, that's about it for me now, bubye. 

Pools and saunas are AMAZING

Sorry in advance for the lack of pics and this being a full three days late...

Hey, guys. Today (Saturday...) wasn’t so stellar ‘til I got home, had some food, did my workout, and went to the pool/sauna, which I tweeted about recently. ^_^

To start off, I woke up early, headed in to work, forgot my phone, only to find out that we’d each get to work a whopping 3 hours…I split my shift with a coworker, because we’re that slow…one of my other coworkers was there, he left a lot sooner, but I saw him playing his djembe  (sp?) drum in the café. He lives super close.

So, anyway, since the girl I was working with took the first three hours, and we weren’t both allowed to be clocked in, I went home to grab my phone. I figured that since I need to study, anyway, I’d grab my laptop and accounting book so when I got back, I’d study til it was time for me to start again.

(I'll put pics of it up later, I forgot my phone's connecty cord.) 

Well, I thought it would be a great idea to take my bike in ‘cuz I thought I knew a shortcut. Mistake one) wearing heavy backpack while trying to bike…Mistake two) I haven’t biked in a while, so I actually didn’t know a shortcut at all.

I still got to work before I was supposed to start again, but that was not fun. The brat guy was there, and despite having issues with him, I’m fully capable of being cordial. He’s not the brightest tool in the shed by any means, so …yeah… (People who know me know that I HATE stupid with a burning passion that shall never be quenched...sorry...wait...no I'm not. >. >) That was easily the longest three hours of my entire life.

I went home after we tore down (and by “we”, I mean “I”, because he literally does nothing but put condiments into boxes and tell everyone else to "find a place for them, but keep them together"... .) with a migraine from hell, in a bad mood, but I relaxed, anyway, and Aiden and I eventually hit the sauna. 

Then we went to the pool ‘cuz he was curious about the water, which was uncharacteristically warm , so we both swam for a while. Then we went back to the sauna (we were only in there for like, a minute, the first time.)

My workout today was …well, it was ok, I lost count, so I ended up doing a full 20 reps more than necessary, but that’s ok. Just means more strength. I have to do more next week, anyway, so I can get used to it now. I felt results on our way down to the pool, BOY does this workout WORK my legs. I have to add more variety to my abs and arms workouts, though, ‘cuz I don’t feel them at all/as much respectively the day after, like I do with the leg ones.

This could be because I used to work the living BLEEP out of my abs when I lived in the dorms. I was doing full hundreds, and other ab workouts. It was great, you could feel the muscle under…all of my…pudge…but still, the muscles were being worked, and I think maybe I just have to modify my workout schedules so I can feel my results.

I really enjoy feeling my results, gives me a sense of accomplishment. Also, in theory, anyway, one eventually sees results. Results are good. But now I’m just rambling.

My left ring finger kind of hurts, though. I don’t know why, it just does. I can’t remember doing anything dumb to it, but sometimes I’ll just have a random finger cramp on me while I type. Probably bad finger posturing…is that even a word? Well…word says it is…whatevs. Anysnooch, maybe I should invest in an ergonomic keyboard. My mom has one that she’s used for years. They take a while to get used to, though.

K, I think I’m done rambling your eyes off for today. 

Cover it up! and Work.

Hi, all. I’m back with a work-related post, well, kind of, anyway. Just not the first three paragraphs, not including this one. 

     It’s really about clothing styles that irk me. The first is easy, leggings. To me, they are not pants. I don’t care if they have pockets now. If it is made of spandex or similar material, it is not outerwear. You may choose to wear them all you like in lieu of pants, go ahead, continue. Don’t take this personally. It’s just this:

      I am not out to stare at your ass or (as it’s been noted here, and apparently it’s rather prevalent) “camel toe”. No one wants to see that – well, there may be guys who want to, I guess, and it may just not be something you’ve thought of. Or maybe it has, I don’t know, it’s really your prerogative. I just happen to not like it.

Are there cute leggings? Yes, of course. Are they cuter with a skirt or shorts over them? In my opinion, yes. But that’s not the point of my post today. It’s going to be a rant, sort of, so sit tight.

        After I got off of work today, I was minding my own business on the bus, when I saw a girl get on with rather nicely done makeup. It may or may not have been gyaru style, but it struck me as such, initially. It was dramatic, anyway. She was really pretty, and so was her dress. … until I noticed that it wasn’t a dress when she went to find a seat (the bus was crowded, so I thought it was a dress for a long time). Once her outfit was in clear sight, I saw that the “dress” stopped about mid-hip. She had black “things that were not shorts” on under it, so I guess the world got a free show of her undies…needless to say, that is not what comes to mind when I think “cute outfit!”. I don’t know what happened to covering up, but it seems like while most people see to enjoy it, there’s a growing number of those who do  not.

       Now, back to work. I never actually talk about my work life, really. I only work weekends again (yeah, so much for “structure”), but I don’t mind that too much. So, anyway, work is like a big clique at my job. Probably because the main girls there all go to school together, and they’ve been working there for a long time, but they make it known when you aren’t accepted in their little group (it is rather small, right now. My former ride left, and despite having started on the same day as me, he was immediately accepted).

    I don’t mind so much now that I have people to talk to. My paleo buddy left, but I have Biker, Blue, and Black . Black is accepted in the group, but that doesn’t bother me, because we still talk.

You might be wondering why this seems like such a big deal, so I’ll tell you now. We work in the same part of the stand. I’ll only be dealing with nicknames for people just to keep privacy. (My real name isn’t even Olive, so…yeah.) There’s the Ringleader, Slim, and Twin. I don’t have anything against the group, personally, it’s just that work is not high school, and after months of feeling rather isolated, it’s just annoying.

     One thing that annoyed me last weekend was the fact that I never really talk to the ringleader (it’s a two-way street, of course. I’m just not the type to initiate conversation, and two of them seem to have the idea that I’d even think about stalking them…idk), but I was talking with Biker, the subject matter being my boyfriend, and the Ringleader decides to cut in and ask which building he works in.

I thought nothing of it, and since I’m not good at describing things, anyway, just said some stuff and went about my business. But after we were done tearing down, I realized what happened in that exchange, and it bugged me a bit.

1. 1)   >.> …you never talk to me, but you want to know where my boyfriend works?
2. 2)   …You were not a part of this conversation, and it concerns you in no way
3. 3)   …Even if you did decide to come to his building, because of his job, you would not be there very long.

My boyfriend is a security guard. He also doesn’t like people, especially the nosy ones, I could list other attributes my boyfriend doesn’t like, but that’d be kind of rude, so I’ll leave off. I’m not saying that the Ringleader really even wanted to go see my boyfriend’s building, it was just all kinds of rude, in my opinion.

I guess nothing really happened today, except to reiterate my point that these girls think I’m going to stalk them, I over heard one of them saying that she was going to one of the temples I used to go to with someone else a couple of years ago. Thinking she was a regular and that I might have seen her there before, I asked if she goes there often. She got so scared for only G_d knows what reason (even if I were into girls, I’m very sure she would not be my type, and I’m not a stalker), and then I clarified that I knew one of the families that has been at the temple basically since it got started there.

Talk about self-absorbed. Really? I want to stalk someone? On one of their holidays no less? Someone I never talk to? Reallllyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy? I'm seriously "not about that life"...

      Another incident is where the Ringleader was talking about this club I used to go to. I just told them some things they should know, because they were useful to me (the things I told her) And she got all shocked and asked if I go there. I told her that I hadn’t been in years, which is true, and I don’t actually plan on going to that club again, to be honest. I’d rather try a different one out for a change, but anyway, she turned around and shouted to J (who mind you is in his 40’s with 3 or 4 children) that he should join her and whoever else was going.

      Did I want an invite? No, because I really don’t want to associate with them outside of work if I don’t have to, mostly based on the way they act. Also, I have no intentions of visiting that club again in the future, no real reason other than that there are many other clubs I could go to, or there’s a sky bar I’ve been interested in for a while. Did I still find it incredibly rude? Of course. It may or may not have been, but the way I was raised, if someone tells you about something you should know, and you don’t want them to go to it, at least wait to invite the people/person you do want to hang out with once that person is gone.

       Oh well, rude or not, Karma gets everyone. Nice and not so nice alike. I like to believe I’m a rather nice person, but after being shoved around so much of my life, I’ve had enough. Now I stand my ground, and if you piss me off, you will be notified. If it was an accident, it can be worked out, if it was on purpose, you literally cease to exist to me. I’m not saying that I “get rid” of you, but outside of a professional manner or being minimally civil (if you are behind me and I’m going out of a door, I will hold it), expect no more than that.

         I’m sure we’ve also been through my character coming into question. I know I have good moral standing. If you tell me that I’m doing something morally wrong just because you aren’t getting in on the same deals, or whatever it is, and I know my morals are sound, you also don’t exist to me. You didn’t raise me, I didn’t grow up with you, and from the sounds of it, anyone calling my morals into question has to be jealous of something, because while I may not be perfect, I know right from wrong, and I do the right thing most of the time (unless it’s simply “the lesser of two evils”, in which case, there’s no winning, anyway).

Wow, what a rant. I think that’s all for now. It was a big, busy weekend since my boyfriend’s parents, brother and sister came into town. I was working during most of their stay, so I hope when they come by again I won’t be so busy. Also, his mom made some super delicious cherry pie. ^__________________________^ (My fave!)